Life

Perspective

It’s Friday today. Friday 31st of January 2020 to be exact.

I’m feeling pensive. Reflecting on my life so far and feeling like I’ve not really accomplished much.

The irony that I was so focused for so many years on getting into medical school so I could save lives, that I forgot to live.

The irony that at the same time I discovered a love for travel and experiencing more cultures, the UK decided to vote to leave the EU. Bloody Brexit.

If today was my last day on this Earth, I would be so devastated. Because after almost 28 years, I haven’t lived. For 24 years, medicine was my whole life. It was how I defined myself. Who am I? “Oh I’m (formerly) the wannabegottabedoctor and I’m a future doctor” I would say. That was it. The sum total of my existence. And then disaster struck. I was forced to leave the medical degree and I felt as if I’d had my whole life snatched away from me.

But today, as I sit at my desk and gaze out of my window at the de-leafed trees and the sky, I realise something. My life was not snatched away from me. No. My life was given back to me. I’m still learning more about who I am but for the first time in my life, I don’t define myself by my profession or my future aspirations. I’m a real person. There’s so much cool s*** about me that I didn’t even realise! I can’t wait to see what else I discover about myself.

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